I can't believe it's february already! i'm still adjusting to the thought..
Anyway, things are going well lately. I'm feeling more balanced and
stable this semester. There are many reasons for this including: a new
practicum site, less drama with school, a creative studio class, and
a good start on my thesis.

I am feeling more like myself, yet I'm still cautious to put myself out there
socially.. i'm feeling very much a homebody lately, and I think it's ok. I am
running so much during the week that when I am home I really enjoy time
with my husband, quiet and relaxation. And i'm still feeling that honeymoon
hideaway stage where we just keep to ourselves. I want to enjoy that while
it lasts.

I can tell that I'm growing, and it feels really good. It's challenging and
uncomfortable at times, but so good.. Growing as a wife, an art therapist/
counselor, student and Christian. Our church is reading through the
Bible this year together which is an awesome challenge that we have been
working on. I am enjoying getting back to some of the basics (spiritual disciplines)
and growing from there. Our church is growing so quickly it's a little crazy. We
started with about 30 people and now are up to about 150 a week.
Check it out http://journeyon.net


PS: my husband is singing in the other room while doing math homework,
that makes me smile...

I've been toying with the thought of
a blog post for a while now.
I have this itching to write
but until now I wasn't sure what I even wanted to say.

Now I am a little restless.
We had our holiday trips to Baltimore, Delaware,
New York and back.. lots of travel, friends and
family. It was beautiful and exhausting.
We've since taken a couple of days to simply
rest, and be..
and now we're at a crossroads of sorts.

Now rested, what shall we do?
Lounge some more or be productive?
Productivity is always the right answer,
but not always the one that wins out.

I can only organize my office/studio for so long...
I can only ponder the thought of working out
long enough to dismiss it from my mind.
And part of me is still rebelling from organized 'work'
while i'm still on break from school.

The sun is bright outside and it seems inviting..
but sadly the temperature is a mere, depressing
27 degrees.. not the kind of weather that motivates
much of anything.

I feel as if I should make the standard New Years blog..
welcoming a new year and all it will bring..
but it seems a little obvious or trite this year.
For me, i think it's more about letting go
of all the expectations and holding to goals
that may really be plausible.
(but don't they all seem that way at first)

I want to be present. With God, clients, friends, family..
I want to be balanced. And keep my priorities in order.
I want to be brave/challenging.
And not simply go with the flow.
I want to be giving. Of Christ's love through me to others.

I want to think less about what I want..
and more about what others need.

I hear the ticking of the clock in my ear,
I'm not sure where it's coming from.

The sounds of woodworking below me
as Shawn works on a new guitar.

Wind whips outside loudly, that eerie sound
always unsettles me.

To say that i'm distracted is an understatement.
I'm struggling to keep it together, just for another week.

I don't feel quite right and i'm not really sure
how to pin point what is going on...

I have been researching art/visual journaling and
I feel like I should be doing it, but there is no time right now..

Or perhaps it is motivation. Right now I am content just to sleep.
Clearly something is holding me back.. only time will tell how it turns out.

I'll stop procrastinating now..